Listening to the radio now, and I can't sleep. The radio's playing Masterpiece. It reminded me of how you'd sent me the song many years ago, and I wish that one day you'd sing that song to me. Come to think of it, I realised we've known each other for almost 10 years now. Almost a third of my life, and I've never been more sure of my feelings for you than now. But I know you'll never feel anything for me. Not five years ago. Not now. But that doesn't change what I feel towards you.
I've given up trying to forget you. Perhaps one day I can finally let go. Perhaps one day I will wake up and realise that I don't feel anything for you anymore. Perhaps that one day will be tomorrow, next week, next month, or perhaps never. I don't know, just like I don't know how to stop loving you.
I don't think you'll ever read this, but if you do happen to chance upon this entry, please do not feel bad for me. I've made my own choice because I chose to love you. I just don't know how to unlove. And I've never once regretted it, even if it hurts so much now. Knowing you has been one of the best things that have happened in my life. Some things are just not meant to be I know.
If you are reading this entry now, please remember to pray for me. I've always been praying for you :).
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